Am I apathetic?
Lazy?
Unable to figure it out?
Why is taking a shower so difficult?
Why is remembering to take my pills
Such a chore?
Could this beast perhaps be
Bigger than me?
Depression
Bipolar
Anxiety
-just the tip of that iceberg,
Chained to the bed,
Unable to stop the thoughts.
But above all.
Above all.
I'm tired.
Exhausted in every way possible.
Take a shower?
I can't get out of bed to do it.
Lazy?
Apathetic?
Pathetic?
Or is it truly
The bipolar beast calling the shots?
Depression is her sidekick.
Anxiety, the throne upon which they sit.
Breaking me.
Day after day.
Hour by hour.
Minute by minute.
But still...
Why can't I just take a shower?
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by Abby Jane Moya
BIO- Abby Moya is an avid reader and master poet. She brings love and joy to everyone who knows her.